Dear Daddy...

Song Played : Because of you - Kelly Clarkson (Always listened since 2009)  


Dear Daddy...
This is the letter from your little girl, the letter that will never sent to you... Because i didn't have any courage to send it to you...

Dad, when i search quote about Dad, i don't know why i feel something wrong with that.. I know i love you, you are my Daddy, our Daddy... You do everything for us, for Mom, Imah and I...

Daddy, i'm sorry....
I know you love us, and everyone has a mistakes,,, but.....

I still remember that day... The day when you fight with moms, the day when moms pick me to school late than before, the day when i cry for the first time for the reason that i didn't know.... I still remember when moms crying in the silently and you didn't came back to home for a few days... I remember that vaguely...

And the day passed... It's a long time until i see that again, i heard that phone call... and i remember how Moms cry again, she search everything in you bags. That day i know Dad,,, you disappoint me... And that was the time when for the first time i start to like someone...

You know Dad... I'm afraid Dad, I'm scared... I didn't have any courage to start to like someone again...

I asked Mom " Why you still live with Dad, Moms?" and she answered with her soft voice "Because He is your Dad, Because I have you and your sister... And He promise me never do that again"...

Oh God, i can't forget all the messages, the package and everything that you and Moms get from that woman.. I know you already begged, you promised Mom that you never do that again,,, but i still feel something wrong until now...

'Daddy is daughter first love', yes you are, and you are the first one who broke my heart too...

But you know that, i still love you... You are my hero,your are the first who teach me, you are the first who support me,, you are the one who concern me,, and you are the first of All...

We love you Daddy, and i'm sorry....

Maybe this is the time for me to trust Mom.. Try to love you again without but.. 
I don't know how... but i will try.... 

Djakarta, May 22 2018

The little girl who want to love her Daddy...

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